Dear Lord,
Thank you for today reading, it really strengtern me as I know more of you. You are God of power, who have limitless power to make everything possible. But above that, you are God of character, God who always faithful and fullfil your word.
Thank you for Abraham, who you have used as an example on how wonderful God you are. Thank you for Christ, a seed fullfilling your covenant with Abraham and since I'm belong to you, that covenant is fullfill in me.
It doesn't matter anymore now Jesus, whether I stay here or move away, whether I stay in the same company or move to another. The main thing is that I will fullfil your purpose in me. And with you Lord, everything is possible and in your character Lord, I know you will make that thing happens.
I believe you will do everything you can to help me complete this journal, you will open shutted door and window, you will clear up my path and give straight direction, you will walk hand in hand with me. And I'm not afraid because I know Lord of Lord is with me.
Jesus I love you and thank you.....
In Jesus name i pray...
Amen
Psalm 40:1-5
'I waited patiently for the Lord;
He turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the slimy pit;
out of the mud and mire;
He set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand
He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear
and put their trust in the Lord.
Blessed is the man
who makes the Lord his trust
who does not look to the proud,
to those who turn aside to false gods,
Many, O Lord my God,
are the wonders you have done.
The things you planned for us
no one can recount to you;
were I to speak and tell of them,
they would be too many to declare.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Friday, February 27, 2009
Emotion rollercoaster
Hi Lord, been in exciting rollercoaster ride these few days, feeling the up and down because of the situation. Couple days ago, I was on the moon since I received a call and a scheduled interview from Europe, a day prior that I was on the down hill and boredom which impact my emotion to everyone around me as well.
It happened again last night after the call from one of the company who offered a job. Tried to rationalised everything and it upset me because I don't see any clear direction. I want to go to europe but it is still far from reality, at the same time I do not have the feeling with the new offer but looking at the current situation on my company today, seems that is the only 'human wise' choice.
But thank you Lord for today passage. How foolish I am, letting these kind of things effect me. I should strengtern my faith in you. I should glorify and thankful for your grace and mercy. I should be happy and relief to know that my future is with you. You have a grand plan in me and I should not worry about this tiny detail situation as you will provide everything for me when the time is right. You will show your way and plan to me when I'm ready.
O Lord, forgive me that I've doubted you and try to take the matter into my hand. I realise how foolish the decision, as I now feeling the confusion and the emptiness when I try to settle it on my own. I should leave it to you and let you handle the things and concentrate on my growth in you. I should focus more on my relationship and strengten my faith in you instead of getting messy with this stuffs.
Thank you Lord for reminding me again, be patience with your fool servant. I love you Lord and I want to stay within your plan.
In Jesus I pray.....
Amen
It happened again last night after the call from one of the company who offered a job. Tried to rationalised everything and it upset me because I don't see any clear direction. I want to go to europe but it is still far from reality, at the same time I do not have the feeling with the new offer but looking at the current situation on my company today, seems that is the only 'human wise' choice.
But thank you Lord for today passage. How foolish I am, letting these kind of things effect me. I should strengtern my faith in you. I should glorify and thankful for your grace and mercy. I should be happy and relief to know that my future is with you. You have a grand plan in me and I should not worry about this tiny detail situation as you will provide everything for me when the time is right. You will show your way and plan to me when I'm ready.
O Lord, forgive me that I've doubted you and try to take the matter into my hand. I realise how foolish the decision, as I now feeling the confusion and the emptiness when I try to settle it on my own. I should leave it to you and let you handle the things and concentrate on my growth in you. I should focus more on my relationship and strengten my faith in you instead of getting messy with this stuffs.
Thank you Lord for reminding me again, be patience with your fool servant. I love you Lord and I want to stay within your plan.
In Jesus I pray.....
Amen
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Moving forward
Lord, thank you for the call yesterday. Tomorrow is the day, help me O Lord to fulfill your purpose. If it is a GO then I will go with you, if it is not then I will stay with you.
Whatever you plan Lord, I will follow as I know that's the only winning plan, walking together with you and not alone.
In Jesus name I pray....
Amen
Whatever you plan Lord, I will follow as I know that's the only winning plan, walking together with you and not alone.
In Jesus name I pray....
Amen
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Be content and faith
Lord, teach me on how to be content and also how to know your purpose in me.
I'm struggling now on how to balance between faith and knowing your detail plan. See, I read a book about Moses Leadership and one of the point mentioned there is that Moses had asked your detail plan i.e. referring to corporate clear mission and also the communication etc. So it mean Moses had asked you the your detail plan and mission statement and one of the reason Moses did that is to be able to communicate that message clearly to the Israelite.
But on the other hand, I also learn about faith and put trust in you like Abraham, when he was called to go to the land you will show him. The problem now, from the bible it says 'the land you will show' but I'm not sure whether on that point, Abraham knew exactly or roughly where he should go. But I see some faith and because of that you call him righteous.
So Lord, now I'm struggle to balance it out between knowing your clear plan on me and faith on you?
Does faith requires me to put trust in you, so I should not known your plan? because if I know exactly you plan in, then I don't need faith?
Or I need to know you detail plan so that I can obey and to that extent I have faith in you because I trust your plan is good for me? I trust that you will guide and protect me until I fulfill my plan?
Lord teach me in detail, I'm still struggling. I want really know what Moses and Abraham did to balance this out. I don't want to be your enemy, I want to have peace with you so teach me Lord so that I don't upset you with my daily struggle.
In Jesus name I pray.....
Amen.
I'm struggling now on how to balance between faith and knowing your detail plan. See, I read a book about Moses Leadership and one of the point mentioned there is that Moses had asked your detail plan i.e. referring to corporate clear mission and also the communication etc. So it mean Moses had asked you the your detail plan and mission statement and one of the reason Moses did that is to be able to communicate that message clearly to the Israelite.
But on the other hand, I also learn about faith and put trust in you like Abraham, when he was called to go to the land you will show him. The problem now, from the bible it says 'the land you will show' but I'm not sure whether on that point, Abraham knew exactly or roughly where he should go. But I see some faith and because of that you call him righteous.
So Lord, now I'm struggle to balance it out between knowing your clear plan on me and faith on you?
Does faith requires me to put trust in you, so I should not known your plan? because if I know exactly you plan in, then I don't need faith?
Or I need to know you detail plan so that I can obey and to that extent I have faith in you because I trust your plan is good for me? I trust that you will guide and protect me until I fulfill my plan?
Lord teach me in detail, I'm still struggling. I want really know what Moses and Abraham did to balance this out. I don't want to be your enemy, I want to have peace with you so teach me Lord so that I don't upset you with my daily struggle.
In Jesus name I pray.....
Amen.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Troubled
Lord I'm troubled, I lost my joy today. I don't feel the peace and rest in you anymore.
Is it because I have sinned yesterday? For that I ask for your forgiveness, I can't follow Moses example yesterday Lord. Give me more patient to react to all situation in my work especially when there are a lot of people whom I feel.......aahhhh, you know Lord my problem.
But I think my trouble is because I don't receive any update or news from the Europe agent. That is why I don't fell the joy anymore. And that seems to impact all my action, I don't feel patient anymore, easy to get irritated including to G and B&B. Lord forgive me.
I know Lord that you are currently teaching me, you start revealing your plan in me and I feel that somehow this place is your plan for me now but I still want to go Lord. I believe you can provide everything there for me, I believe the teaching can be done there as well. Yes, it is easier here since everything is in place, the church, the family, the small group. I have to find and start all over again in my new place.
As you said, Ask........so I'm asking you Lord, not to test you etc, but asking nicely if you could allowed me?
But most important, teach me to know your plan and obey. Like Jesus in getsehmani, although He knew the cup is bitter but He surrender to your plan.
My struggle is far easy compare to what Jesus faced, but Lord I still need you and please fulfill your plan in me.
In Jesus name I pray.......
Amen
Is it because I have sinned yesterday? For that I ask for your forgiveness, I can't follow Moses example yesterday Lord. Give me more patient to react to all situation in my work especially when there are a lot of people whom I feel.......aahhhh, you know Lord my problem.
But I think my trouble is because I don't receive any update or news from the Europe agent. That is why I don't fell the joy anymore. And that seems to impact all my action, I don't feel patient anymore, easy to get irritated including to G and B&B. Lord forgive me.
I know Lord that you are currently teaching me, you start revealing your plan in me and I feel that somehow this place is your plan for me now but I still want to go Lord. I believe you can provide everything there for me, I believe the teaching can be done there as well. Yes, it is easier here since everything is in place, the church, the family, the small group. I have to find and start all over again in my new place.
As you said, Ask........so I'm asking you Lord, not to test you etc, but asking nicely if you could allowed me?
But most important, teach me to know your plan and obey. Like Jesus in getsehmani, although He knew the cup is bitter but He surrender to your plan.
My struggle is far easy compare to what Jesus faced, but Lord I still need you and please fulfill your plan in me.
In Jesus name I pray.......
Amen
Monday, February 23, 2009
Infant to Grown up Christian
Thank you Lord for revealing more to me. Today passage (Ephesus 4:1-14) is true, I'm still in infant stage although I start seeing some development and transformation process in me.
This happens not because I and I alone but because your grace is being fill more and more in me.
I thank you for the church you gave, a church where I can grow and learn your word. I thank you for the new brother and sister who help me to grow, especially I thank you for Rev B and D who have been a blessing in my Christian growth, whom you have sent to become a mentor and coach in my Christian living. I know that if I have some spiritual question etc now, I can come to the church and talk and discuss with them. Everything would be more difficult if I'm away from here i.e. moving abroad.
Although Lord I believe you are the source and you can provide the same thing for us in the new place, but I grateful for what you have done and gave so far and I should hang on to it until I ready to go to the next Christian maturity level.
I'm still in infant stage and it is not a time yet to leave my family here. Refecting on my life, I leave my family when I was 18 for school, now I can say that my Christian live is still below 5 years in my Christian living, I still earing Christian soft food etc.
So Lord, as I pray yesterday that I want to know your plan and be submissive and obey. Today you have clearly said about my infanity and the need to learn and grow further. I see that you have put that process in place here and although I have start growing and see some tranformation, I'm still not in mature level yet. I believe you will give the opportunity again once you see i'm ready and can fulfill my purpose.
Lord I see it now, I obey and surrender to your plan, please reveal more and more to me Lord and strengten me O Lord. Somehow, I still can't accept today passage, deep down in me I still want to go and some idea to request an express school and process, so that I can be a mature Christian in a week or so, so that when the job offer finally come, I can come to you and said, Lord please let me go as I'm ready.
Teach me Lord to follow you decrees, because that is the important part, alway remind me on Matthew 26:36-46 that although Jesus know the cup is bitter, He still take the cup and obey you Lord. Do the same to me Lord, strengtern and teach me.
In Jesus name I pray....
Amen
This happens not because I and I alone but because your grace is being fill more and more in me.
I thank you for the church you gave, a church where I can grow and learn your word. I thank you for the new brother and sister who help me to grow, especially I thank you for Rev B and D who have been a blessing in my Christian growth, whom you have sent to become a mentor and coach in my Christian living. I know that if I have some spiritual question etc now, I can come to the church and talk and discuss with them. Everything would be more difficult if I'm away from here i.e. moving abroad.
Although Lord I believe you are the source and you can provide the same thing for us in the new place, but I grateful for what you have done and gave so far and I should hang on to it until I ready to go to the next Christian maturity level.
I'm still in infant stage and it is not a time yet to leave my family here. Refecting on my life, I leave my family when I was 18 for school, now I can say that my Christian live is still below 5 years in my Christian living, I still earing Christian soft food etc.
So Lord, as I pray yesterday that I want to know your plan and be submissive and obey. Today you have clearly said about my infanity and the need to learn and grow further. I see that you have put that process in place here and although I have start growing and see some tranformation, I'm still not in mature level yet. I believe you will give the opportunity again once you see i'm ready and can fulfill my purpose.
Lord I see it now, I obey and surrender to your plan, please reveal more and more to me Lord and strengten me O Lord. Somehow, I still can't accept today passage, deep down in me I still want to go and some idea to request an express school and process, so that I can be a mature Christian in a week or so, so that when the job offer finally come, I can come to you and said, Lord please let me go as I'm ready.
Teach me Lord to follow you decrees, because that is the important part, alway remind me on Matthew 26:36-46 that although Jesus know the cup is bitter, He still take the cup and obey you Lord. Do the same to me Lord, strengtern and teach me.
In Jesus name I pray....
Amen
Saturday, February 21, 2009
God wisdom
Praise the Lord for today wisdom. Thank you Lord for revealing more to me, I love you and praise you for this.
Please keep me on track and always reminds me on today passage that the faith exercise I'm going through right now is not 'I center' exercise but is JESUS and JESUS alone center.
It is not just to find out whether I stay or move to Europe and also with whatever detail or requirements that comes with that decision.
The faith exercise is about to find GOD AUTHORITY on me and once I found it, being SUBMISSIVE and OBEY it.
Matthew 26:36-46 shows clearly that during Your last night on earth, You clearly know what is GOD's plan for you and although you know that something really bad is going to happen, You still take and drink the cup for the eternal purpose beyond the cross.
Lord, although I do not dare to put my self in your position as I'm weak etc, but I want to be somehow or in certain level like you.
I want to be someone who know God purpose clearly up to little detail (like Matthew 26:46), and also someone who still obey although the plan required a heavy sacrifice as I know that GOD authority is beyond 'my cross'.
I also would like thank You for the your tips on how to win this exercise and also for all future life test.
Luke 22:44
'and being in anguish, he prayed more earnestly, and his sweat was like drops of blood falling to the ground'
Jesus, I love you and thank you for today teaching. Thank you for the relieve and answer for my pray. I know you are with me and will not forsake me.
In Jesus name I pray.....
Amen
Please keep me on track and always reminds me on today passage that the faith exercise I'm going through right now is not 'I center' exercise but is JESUS and JESUS alone center.
It is not just to find out whether I stay or move to Europe and also with whatever detail or requirements that comes with that decision.
The faith exercise is about to find GOD AUTHORITY on me and once I found it, being SUBMISSIVE and OBEY it.
Matthew 26:36-46 shows clearly that during Your last night on earth, You clearly know what is GOD's plan for you and although you know that something really bad is going to happen, You still take and drink the cup for the eternal purpose beyond the cross.
Lord, although I do not dare to put my self in your position as I'm weak etc, but I want to be somehow or in certain level like you.
I want to be someone who know God purpose clearly up to little detail (like Matthew 26:46), and also someone who still obey although the plan required a heavy sacrifice as I know that GOD authority is beyond 'my cross'.
I also would like thank You for the your tips on how to win this exercise and also for all future life test.
Luke 22:44
'and being in anguish, he prayed more earnestly, and his sweat was like drops of blood falling to the ground'
Jesus, I love you and thank you for today teaching. Thank you for the relieve and answer for my pray. I know you are with me and will not forsake me.
In Jesus name I pray.....
Amen
Friday, February 20, 2009
I need you Lord
Dear Lord, the exercise is getting more and more challenging. After we went thru on what G has to decided, it is now my turn.
These couple of days I received 2 news which make me uncomfortable. The news about my company yesterday was quite bad although from today communication session, there was nothing severe or nagative impact on us and our office here. Thank you Lord for that. But still I do not know what would happen tomorrow.
And while I have not heard any progress news on the Europe job, I received news from my other agent that the other company which I went for series of interviews in the last few weeks finally make an good offer. They willing to give the amount that I asked. But somehow I don't feel any joy on the news and no desire to take the job.
I have been thinking, in my own wisdom Lord which are pretty much useless compare to yours, that I have a comfort level in my current company and if there is no compelling reason or challenge to move - such as moving to another continent, then I would prefer to stay with the one I have.
I have seen what the leader had done in the past especially to me, how he had given or fought for my benefit, how I have grown to what I have now, how they have supported me so that I have the confident I have now, so there is no reason to jump the ship now.
Maybe this is one of the reason if You decided to put me in this country, one of the reason beside church and the new Godly grow I have, may I asked that you use this event as an opportunity for me to rise and grow to the next level. Use me and my skill / education which you have given so far to help my company exit the chapter 11. So from this event, everyone can see how you have transform me and glorify your name.
I have not thinking clearly on the sign I want from you Lord, not that I want to test you but this is more to test myself. I want to push my limit for You, O Lord.
Please hear my pray and help me to go thru this faith exercise. I feel your absence today, don't forsake me o Lord, I know you are there and listening to my prayer.
In Jesus name I pray.....
Amen
These couple of days I received 2 news which make me uncomfortable. The news about my company yesterday was quite bad although from today communication session, there was nothing severe or nagative impact on us and our office here. Thank you Lord for that. But still I do not know what would happen tomorrow.
And while I have not heard any progress news on the Europe job, I received news from my other agent that the other company which I went for series of interviews in the last few weeks finally make an good offer. They willing to give the amount that I asked. But somehow I don't feel any joy on the news and no desire to take the job.
I have been thinking, in my own wisdom Lord which are pretty much useless compare to yours, that I have a comfort level in my current company and if there is no compelling reason or challenge to move - such as moving to another continent, then I would prefer to stay with the one I have.
I have seen what the leader had done in the past especially to me, how he had given or fought for my benefit, how I have grown to what I have now, how they have supported me so that I have the confident I have now, so there is no reason to jump the ship now.
Maybe this is one of the reason if You decided to put me in this country, one of the reason beside church and the new Godly grow I have, may I asked that you use this event as an opportunity for me to rise and grow to the next level. Use me and my skill / education which you have given so far to help my company exit the chapter 11. So from this event, everyone can see how you have transform me and glorify your name.
I have not thinking clearly on the sign I want from you Lord, not that I want to test you but this is more to test myself. I want to push my limit for You, O Lord.
Please hear my pray and help me to go thru this faith exercise. I feel your absence today, don't forsake me o Lord, I know you are there and listening to my prayer.
In Jesus name I pray.....
Amen
More challenge is coming
Feel a bit blank today...some how I missed God present today. Some how I don't feel His present today. Lord forgive my sin as I boast my self yesterday. Forgive me Lord but please don't forsake me.
I still have no idea on how to see your plan in me, should I go or should I stay, I still don't understand.
Yesterday one more event came up, there is some problem with my company and it is now under chapter 11. Honestly I do not know how severe it is, the management has come with all the action point and to do list during this situation. I do not know how it will impact my office here as all the while they say it is a local problem within US.
Today we will be having a communication session with our leader here and I pray for this Lord. Prepare me for all the news I will receipt, give me wisdom to react in Godly manner and always praise you on any condition.
Give me wisdom to see thru this and not to it.
In Jesus name I pray and re-surrender my self to you.
Amen
I still have no idea on how to see your plan in me, should I go or should I stay, I still don't understand.
Yesterday one more event came up, there is some problem with my company and it is now under chapter 11. Honestly I do not know how severe it is, the management has come with all the action point and to do list during this situation. I do not know how it will impact my office here as all the while they say it is a local problem within US.
Today we will be having a communication session with our leader here and I pray for this Lord. Prepare me for all the news I will receipt, give me wisdom to react in Godly manner and always praise you on any condition.
Give me wisdom to see thru this and not to it.
In Jesus name I pray and re-surrender my self to you.
Amen
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
The criterias
Lord, give me wisdom and help me to put down the criteria list that will help me to make the big decision in later date. Help me to do this according to your purpose and not mine, on your center and not mine so that I will not boast my self.
As you are my coach now Lord, teach me to understand your method so that I can obey and become a winner.
Teach me to be humble as well and not thinking that I'm special because of this. This event is purely your grace and I'm grateful Lord.
Also thank you for one of today verse. I really like it.
Psalm 119:97-105
Your word is a lamp to my feet
and a light for my path (verse 105)
Show my path o Lord, do not forsake me.
In Jesus name I pray
Amen
As you are my coach now Lord, teach me to understand your method so that I can obey and become a winner.
Teach me to be humble as well and not thinking that I'm special because of this. This event is purely your grace and I'm grateful Lord.
Also thank you for one of today verse. I really like it.
Psalm 119:97-105
Your word is a lamp to my feet
and a light for my path (verse 105)
Show my path o Lord, do not forsake me.
In Jesus name I pray
Amen
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
First faith exercise
Yesterday I decided to go for a faith exercise and God is really awesome and in away...a funny coach. He has his own method which I kind od adjusting and understanding right now.
It is like making decision to embark on a marathon exercise with a world class marathon coach. Well, in deed he did warned me that the program will be tought and very demanding and I had agreed to follow whatever he say or ask.
So on first day of the program, he woke me up at 4 o'clock in the morning, putting weight on my arm, leg and body and command me to run up hill which I never done before.
But hey, this is what I asking for........so I know that he really trains me to be the best.
God, yesterday when G and I discussed about the new offer and at the same time, no news from Europe, I thought that you have given me the final answer. Honestly I already give in, and if it is your command and plan then so be it.
Until around midnight when I received the call from the headhunter.
Thank you Lord for the call, it is nice to know that the opportunity is still there but the most important fact that I learned now is that You also want to embark on this journey together with me. By keeping the opportunity open, it means the faith exercise and bonding event is still on. O God, how happy to know that You want get closer to me as I want to get closer to you more. I love You for that Jesus!!!!
Teach me to be humble and to put you on the center and not myself and always remember that whatever the decision, it is for your best interest on me and to fulfill my purpose. Teach me to work or pay attention on the main event and not on the small little event or detail.
Lord I love you so much.....
Psalm 62:1-2
My soul finds rest in God alone;
my salvation comes from Him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation;
He is my fortress, I will never be shaken.
To the best father and friend in the universe I pray
Amen.
It is like making decision to embark on a marathon exercise with a world class marathon coach. Well, in deed he did warned me that the program will be tought and very demanding and I had agreed to follow whatever he say or ask.
So on first day of the program, he woke me up at 4 o'clock in the morning, putting weight on my arm, leg and body and command me to run up hill which I never done before.
But hey, this is what I asking for........so I know that he really trains me to be the best.
God, yesterday when G and I discussed about the new offer and at the same time, no news from Europe, I thought that you have given me the final answer. Honestly I already give in, and if it is your command and plan then so be it.
Until around midnight when I received the call from the headhunter.
Thank you Lord for the call, it is nice to know that the opportunity is still there but the most important fact that I learned now is that You also want to embark on this journey together with me. By keeping the opportunity open, it means the faith exercise and bonding event is still on. O God, how happy to know that You want get closer to me as I want to get closer to you more. I love You for that Jesus!!!!
Teach me to be humble and to put you on the center and not myself and always remember that whatever the decision, it is for your best interest on me and to fulfill my purpose. Teach me to work or pay attention on the main event and not on the small little event or detail.
Lord I love you so much.....
Psalm 62:1-2
My soul finds rest in God alone;
my salvation comes from Him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation;
He is my fortress, I will never be shaken.
To the best father and friend in the universe I pray
Amen.
Monday, February 16, 2009
Rest in GOD
Psalm 116:7
'Be at rest once more, O my soul, for the Lord has been good to you'
Thank you Lord for today passage, I should have surrender all to you and let you lead me all my life. Being rest in you, surrender all my worry and let you lead me all my life.
But Lord, I want to have a faith exercise with you on this new opportunity. I want to get the experience where I feel a close relationship with you, experience your lead and make a decision that centered on you and not mine.
If I have to stay here, that's because I know that my purpose is here and let me know clearly also Lord, my purpose so that I can fulfill and glorify your name.
If I have to move, that also because I know clearly your purpose for me is in the new place. And help me to not boasting my self if I get the new job, but make me understand that all of this happens because it is you will and help me to settle and start fulfulling my purpose there.
I want to have this event as a bonding activity with you and as result - whatever it is - I can draw closer and knowing you better O Lord.
Give me wisdom to hear your voice and will, give me wisdom to differentiate my need and Your need. Give me wisdom to always put you on the center and not my self. Teach me to be humble, patient and contented. Teach me to be a servant who always listen carefully to my master command and obey Him wholeheartedly.
What ever the result, I want to come up as a winner and loving you more Jesus.
So, in your name I will enter this faith exercise. Always be with me, don't forsake me O Lord.
In Jesus name I pray.....
Amen
'Be at rest once more, O my soul, for the Lord has been good to you'
Thank you Lord for today passage, I should have surrender all to you and let you lead me all my life. Being rest in you, surrender all my worry and let you lead me all my life.
But Lord, I want to have a faith exercise with you on this new opportunity. I want to get the experience where I feel a close relationship with you, experience your lead and make a decision that centered on you and not mine.
If I have to stay here, that's because I know that my purpose is here and let me know clearly also Lord, my purpose so that I can fulfill and glorify your name.
If I have to move, that also because I know clearly your purpose for me is in the new place. And help me to not boasting my self if I get the new job, but make me understand that all of this happens because it is you will and help me to settle and start fulfulling my purpose there.
I want to have this event as a bonding activity with you and as result - whatever it is - I can draw closer and knowing you better O Lord.
Give me wisdom to hear your voice and will, give me wisdom to differentiate my need and Your need. Give me wisdom to always put you on the center and not my self. Teach me to be humble, patient and contented. Teach me to be a servant who always listen carefully to my master command and obey Him wholeheartedly.
What ever the result, I want to come up as a winner and loving you more Jesus.
So, in your name I will enter this faith exercise. Always be with me, don't forsake me O Lord.
In Jesus name I pray.....
Amen
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Wisdom from and centered on God
Jesus, reacting on today's sermon, I want a wisdom from you Lord. The wisdom that centered around and on you so that I have the resposibility to use it for your Glory.
With that wisdom, teach me not to boast my self and use it for my own purpose.
My life is yours and with the your wisdom, teach me and show me your purpose on me.
Show me how to react in Godly manner in every situation and show me to differentiate the good and the bad. Show me how to be passionate on other, teach me to be patient, to be contented and humble.
In Jesus name i pray
Amen
Be with God or againts Him
Just hear a nice opportunity presented over the email, seems very interesting though. Did some research on the company and based city, even more interested to go.
I have been imaginating the new live there, starting all over again etc, but not sure whether this is God's way or not.
I want to see how this is end and I want to see how God works and lead me on this.
Honestly, based on what I know today I want the job so hard, but I don't want to make decision based on my own not God. So not sure whether He will allowed me to go and take this. What I have now is very good, I have a pretty much safe job although with current situation, I don't know what will happen next but one thing for sure, God is holding my future *thank God*.
Another good thing is I have found a good church here where I can grow and couple new nice brother and sister in Christ, so not sure......
I wish God direction is clear i.e. He appears in front of me or thru dream and said 'Go' or 'don't go' but it didn't.
But I'm glad that this is happening now so at least I can experience God direction again and this time in my concious.
He has and always lead me, although I have been stray away few years ago but still I am what I am today because of Him. I still remember at my first work when I had tendered and was on my way home, only to realised that I had left something at my former office. When I was back, colleague of mine told me that one of the client called and asked for my contact number, I called right away and got offered to join the company, one of leading company in my country which I believe if I went thru the official channel, I would have not entered. But God provided another way. One thing lead to another thing, now I am here with all His blessing and grace. BTW, during that time, mobile phone was not invented, so it was purely God works and time.
But all the while, I was not conciously let God lead me as I was 'againts' Him. It was purely God loves and grace on me.
I believe this event is God work and He wants me to experience His work once more and this time I want to really see and experience His power.
I have been imaginating the new live there, starting all over again etc, but not sure whether this is God's way or not.
I want to see how this is end and I want to see how God works and lead me on this.
Honestly, based on what I know today I want the job so hard, but I don't want to make decision based on my own not God. So not sure whether He will allowed me to go and take this. What I have now is very good, I have a pretty much safe job although with current situation, I don't know what will happen next but one thing for sure, God is holding my future *thank God*.
Another good thing is I have found a good church here where I can grow and couple new nice brother and sister in Christ, so not sure......
I wish God direction is clear i.e. He appears in front of me or thru dream and said 'Go' or 'don't go' but it didn't.
But I'm glad that this is happening now so at least I can experience God direction again and this time in my concious.
He has and always lead me, although I have been stray away few years ago but still I am what I am today because of Him. I still remember at my first work when I had tendered and was on my way home, only to realised that I had left something at my former office. When I was back, colleague of mine told me that one of the client called and asked for my contact number, I called right away and got offered to join the company, one of leading company in my country which I believe if I went thru the official channel, I would have not entered. But God provided another way. One thing lead to another thing, now I am here with all His blessing and grace. BTW, during that time, mobile phone was not invented, so it was purely God works and time.
But all the while, I was not conciously let God lead me as I was 'againts' Him. It was purely God loves and grace on me.
I believe this event is God work and He wants me to experience His work once more and this time I want to really see and experience His power.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Leader like Moses
Today reading is about faith without action is nothing. The main verse is taken from Hebrew but I actually learn another stuff from the supporting verse.
It is taken from Numbers 13:1 - 14:45.
It is about Moses sent out 12 tribe leaders to spy on Canaan. The 10 came back with dis-couraging news such as the people were powerful, the city were fortified and so on. Only 2 (Joshua and Caleb) had faith and said 'We should go up and take possession of the land, for we can certainly do it' (verse 30).
As I read further, the Israelites were gumbled againts Moses and Aaron and said that they were better off in Egypt. They have forgotten what God had done to them, the facts that God Himself led them from Egypt using the cloud and fire, provided the manna etc. I also read that the protest were so severe that the Isralites were thinking to stone Moses, Aaron, Joshua and Caled to dead. That when God showed Himself in the tent of meeting.
The interesting part I learned was that when God was so angry and wants to punish and destroy the whole nation and start over with 4 of them (verse 12), Moses defended Israel and ask for God forgiveness.
This is the act beyond my mind, few minutes ago the same nation had just threaten to stone him to dead. He also had been together with the same nation from Egypt and witnessed the rebellion, the arrogance, the stubborned and wicked act but he still has the patient with the people.
If I were Moses, I would have said to God something like this:
'Yes God, please punish them. These people are so ungrateful and wicked that they should have been punish long long time ago. Please punish them as harsh as possible. You see Mr. X, he said something very bad about you, you should punish him harder. And also Mr. Y, he is the one leading and spread all the bad rumour about you, Mr. Z, he is the one suggesting to stone us to dead. Oh Lord, please punish all of them I can't take it anymore, this nation is so wicked they should not even be save in the first place bla bla bla....'
But Moses didn't and he asked for God patient and forgiveness.
Refecting to my own situation, I need to learn more to be like Moses. Most of the time, in my daily work struggle, when I met difficult people, I always judge them and pray for punishment on them. When things got uglier and people start to see who to blame, instead of defending or asking for forgiveness, I happily join the judge team and happily add bad comment and fact so that the rest of the people knew and hate him or her more.
Jesus, thank you for the lesson and reminder that I'm not the judge. I should show more Godliness love to those people and more patient in my interaction.
It is taken from Numbers 13:1 - 14:45.
It is about Moses sent out 12 tribe leaders to spy on Canaan. The 10 came back with dis-couraging news such as the people were powerful, the city were fortified and so on. Only 2 (Joshua and Caleb) had faith and said 'We should go up and take possession of the land, for we can certainly do it' (verse 30).
As I read further, the Israelites were gumbled againts Moses and Aaron and said that they were better off in Egypt. They have forgotten what God had done to them, the facts that God Himself led them from Egypt using the cloud and fire, provided the manna etc. I also read that the protest were so severe that the Isralites were thinking to stone Moses, Aaron, Joshua and Caled to dead. That when God showed Himself in the tent of meeting.
The interesting part I learned was that when God was so angry and wants to punish and destroy the whole nation and start over with 4 of them (verse 12), Moses defended Israel and ask for God forgiveness.
This is the act beyond my mind, few minutes ago the same nation had just threaten to stone him to dead. He also had been together with the same nation from Egypt and witnessed the rebellion, the arrogance, the stubborned and wicked act but he still has the patient with the people.
If I were Moses, I would have said to God something like this:
'Yes God, please punish them. These people are so ungrateful and wicked that they should have been punish long long time ago. Please punish them as harsh as possible. You see Mr. X, he said something very bad about you, you should punish him harder. And also Mr. Y, he is the one leading and spread all the bad rumour about you, Mr. Z, he is the one suggesting to stone us to dead. Oh Lord, please punish all of them I can't take it anymore, this nation is so wicked they should not even be save in the first place bla bla bla....'
But Moses didn't and he asked for God patient and forgiveness.
Refecting to my own situation, I need to learn more to be like Moses. Most of the time, in my daily work struggle, when I met difficult people, I always judge them and pray for punishment on them. When things got uglier and people start to see who to blame, instead of defending or asking for forgiveness, I happily join the judge team and happily add bad comment and fact so that the rest of the people knew and hate him or her more.
Jesus, thank you for the lesson and reminder that I'm not the judge. I should show more Godliness love to those people and more patient in my interaction.
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